Thursday, August 29, 2013

Harken by Kaleb Nation

Harken
By: Kaleb Nation
Released: January 9, 2013
Source: Author
Purchase the Book: Amazon
*A copy of this book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review

"After surviving an assassination attempt, teenager Michael Asher discovers that he is at the center of a worldwide conspiracy reaching higher than any earthly power. A supernatural organization desperately wants him dead. He doesn't know why. Everyone who might have the answers has already been killed. Tumbling into a web of international secrets, Michael is forced to fight back and dig up the truth. He begins to question how much of the world is truly as people are led to believe it is. Are there things that humanity is not being told? Who is the puppet master? And how far into the maze can he venture before he is lost forever?" (Summary from goodreads.com)

I really enjoyed Harken and read this book in one sitting. It was a really interesting concept that was fast paced. This book also turned out to be not what I entirely expected, but in a good way.

Michael has this really cool ability where he can read a person's emotions through their eyes. He survives an assassination attempt from a supernatural organization and discovers a conspiracy. I thought Michael was developed fairly well. I admit he drove me a bit crazy some times though. However, he did get thrown into a crazy situation really quickly.

There were also a couple of really interesting side characters, like Tad, Alli, and Callista. Callista drove me a bit crazy too at times. I loved Alli though and thought she was a fantastic character. Then I especially loved Tad and actually wanted more of him in the book. He quickly became my favorite character.

This story instantly hooked me in during the first couple of pages when it started with a lot of action. I loved how fast it was paced because it still managed to never feel rushed at all. The whole conspiracy storyline was really interesting and different from a lot of the books that I have been reading lately. The constant action helped keep the pace moving.

The ending left me on the edge of my seat. I'm really looking forward to seeing where book two will go because there are still some questions left unanswered. Overall, I enjoyed Harken. It was a quick and exciting read.     

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Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Waiting on Wednesday #116: Ignite Me


Waiting On Wednesday is a weekly event hosted by Breaking the Spine that spotlights upcoming releases.

Ignite Me (Shatter Me #3)
By: Tahereh Mafi
Release Date: February 4, 2014

"Juliette now knows she may be the only one who can stop the Reestablishment. But to take them down, she’ll need the help of the one person she never thought she could trust: Warner. And as they work together, Juliette will discover that everything she thought she knew—about Warner, her abilities, and even Adam—was wrong. In Shatter Me, Tahereh Mafi created a captivating and original story that combined the best of dystopian and paranormal and was praised by Publishers Weekly as “a gripping read from an author who’s not afraid to take risks." The sequel, Unravel Me, blew readers away with heart-racing twists and turns, and New York Times bestselling author Kami Garcia said it was “dangerous, sexy, romantic, and intense.” Now this final book brings the series to a shocking and climactic end." (Summary from goodreads.com)

I'm so excited for Ignite Me! I love this series and can't wait to see how it will end. I also love this cover, it's gorgeous!

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Blog Tour Review: Wavecrossed by Andrea Colt


Wavecrossed
By: Andrea Colt
Released: August 22, 2013
Source: Author
Purchase the Book: Amazon - Createspace - BN
*A copy of this book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review

"To Cassandra Kelleher, trust is a dirty word. A teenage selkie who grew up on land, all she wants is to free her family from the man who stole their sealskins long ago. With her twin brother Brennan losing hope and her window of opportunity disappearing like the beach at high tide, she’ll try anything. Before long, however, Cassandra can’t tell whether her biggest threat is the man holding her family captive, a classmate who’s discovered her secret, or her own paranoia. Battling broken friendships and alarming romantic entanglements, Cassandra finds that trust could be the key to winning her family’s freedom … or losing her own" (Summary from goodreads.com)

I really enjoyed Wavecrossed and I thought that the concept was fantastic. I love the mythology about selkies so I was really excited when I first heard about this book. I was also a fan of Colt's previous book, Torched, so I was looking forward to reading what she wrote next.

Cassandra wants nothing more than to free her family and get back their sealskins for them. I really liked Cassandra for most of the book. She could get a bit frustrating at times because she is just so paranoid, but overall I admired her. I loved how she would do anything for her family. She had the chance to just leave them all behind, but instead she stays to come up with a plan to help them. I just loved the whole family dynamic that this story brought out. I thought that Cassandra was developed well through out the book too. I also loved the side characters, like Leisel and Cassandra's twin brother, Brennan.

The plot was really interesting and I liked how the story always kept moving. This book never slowed so I never lost interest in what was happening to these characters. I also liked that it didn't get too predictable. I was already a fan of selkie stories before picking up this book, but I really loved how Colt described and used the mythology throughout the book. One thing that did get somewhat frustrating while reading was that the writing would get repetitive at times though.     

Overall, I really enjoyed Wavecrossed. It was a captivating and fast-paced read that I would recommend picking up.

My Rating:


 



About Andrea Colt:
Andrea Colt grew up reading and squabbling with her identical twin. She lives in Alexandria, Virginia with her husband, a fridge full of cheese, and two feline muses. Visit andreacolt.com to get to know her better.


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Monday, August 26, 2013

Origin by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Origin
By: Jennifer L. Armentrout
Released: August 27, 2013
Source: E-ARC from Publisher
Purchase the Book: Amazon

"Daemon will do anything to get Katy back. After the successful but disastrous raid on Mount Weather, he’s facing the impossible. Katy is gone. Taken. Everything becomes about finding her. Taking out anyone who stands in his way? Done. Burning down the whole world to save her? Gladly. Exposing his alien race to the world? With pleasure. All Katy can do is survive. Surrounded by enemies, the only way she can come out of this is to adapt. After all, there are sides of Daedalus that don’t seem entirely crazy, but the group’s goals are frightening and the truths they speak even more disturbing. Who are the real bad guys? Daedalus? Mankind? Or the Luxen?Together, they can face anything. But the most dangerous foe has been there all along, and when the truths are exposed and the lies come crumbling down, which side will Daemon and Katy be standing on? And will they even be together?" (Summary from goodreads.com)

Surprise Origin was another Jennifer L. Armentrout book that I just absolutely loved. Okay so no big surprise here, it's another review where I just rave about how much I love another one of Armentrout's books.

Opal left me breathless and on the edge of my seat counting down the days until Origin was released. Origin picks up where Opal left off and Katy has been taken by Daedalus. Daemon will do anything to get her back. Katy is being tested on and learning more about the mission of Daedalus. I think that both Katy and Daemon really continue to develop in this book. I also loved seeing the return of some old characters and the introduction of some new characters too.   

I loved that Origin alternated between Daemon and Katy's point of views. It was great to read Daemon's point of view and read his perspective on the situation. I also loved how it really helped move the story along. 

Next, I loved the plot for this book. Armentrout has brought this series to an even newer level. It was so interesting and terrifying to learn more about the Daedalus and Luxen. I didn't know what to expect from this book when I began it and I'm so happy that it never got predictable. There were plenty of twists that I just never saw coming. There were several times when I just couldn't believe what I just read and would go back to make sure I read it right. I also loved how she brought you to some new settings in this book. It was refreshing to see the characters in different environments.

Origin is just another amazing addition to this series! As soon as I started reading this book, I couldn't put it down. I was on the edge of my seat the whole time I was reading. This book broke my heart, put that big goofy grin on my face, and left me dying for the next book. I didn't think my love for these characters, especially Daemon, could grow any more, but somehow Armentrout has made me love them even more. I also must note how much I loved the reference to Wendy Higgins book, Sweet Evil. Overall, I highly recommend this book to fans of the series and if you haven't read this series yet, then start reading immediately! 


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Thursday, August 22, 2013

The Infinite Moment of Us by Lauren Myracle

The Infinite Moment of Us
By: Lauren Myracle
Release Date: August 27, 2013
Source: Netgalley
Purchase the Book: Amazon 
*A copy of this book was provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review

"For as long as she can remember, Wren Gray’s goal has been to please her parents. But as high school graduation nears, so does an uncomfortable realization: Pleasing her parents once overlapped with pleasing herself, but now... not so much. Wren needs to honor her own desires, but how can she if she doesn’t even know what they are? Charlie Parker, on the other hand, is painfully aware of his heart’s desire. A gentle boy with a troubled past, Charlie has loved Wren since the day he first saw her. But a girl like Wren would never fall for a guy like Charlie—at least not the sort of guy Charlie believes himself to be. And yet certain things are written in the stars. And in the summer after high school, Wren and Charlie’s souls will collide. But souls are complicated, as are the bodies that house them..." (Summary from goodreads.com)

 

I had a lot of issues with The Infinite Moment of Us. I still finished this book because I was interested enough to see how it would end. However, this book was just not for me at all. I'm sure that there are people who could really enjoy this book though. So just keep in mind this review is just my own personal opinion.

Wren has always done everything that her parents wanted her to do. As she graduates high school though she starts to think more about what it is that she actually wants. Then there is Charlie who has a dark past. He doesn't believe that a girl like Wren would bother with a guy like him. However, these two quickly fall in love.

Wren and Charlie were both characters that annoyed me and came across as so needy. However, unlikable characters isn't enough to make me dislike a book. It was the plot and how undeveloped the characters were that really bothered me. First, I just didn't buy the relationship between Charlie and Wren. I just didn't see the chemistry between these two and I feel like their relationship was rushed. Then I was really disappointed in the ending of this book. I feel like the characters weren't developed at all. I also felt like nothing really happened and I was left with so many unanswered questions. 

Let me say that I have no issue at all with sex being in Young Adult books. I personally believe that it should be in more books. I also have no issue with it being descriptive and I admire the author for really describing the emotions that go along with it. However, while trying to avoid spoilers, I will say that there were some aspects of the way that sex was handled that really bothered me. The writing just fell short to me as well. These characters didn't speak realistically like teenagers and the dialogue was just awkward to read at times too.

I will mention that there were still some positives to this book. It was very captivating and I read it in one sitting. There were some moments between Charlie and Wren that I thought were really cute and reminded you of that first summer love. I also really loved Charlie's family, especially Dev. The relationship between Charlie and Dev was fantastic and I loved it.   
   
Overall, I was personally disappointed with The Infinite Moment of Us. This book just wasn't for me.   

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Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Waiting on Wednesday #115: Being Sloane Jacobs


Waiting On Wednesday is a weekly event hosted by Breaking the Spine that spotlights upcoming releases.



Being Sloane Jacobs
By: Lauren Morrill
Release Date: January 7, 2013

"Meet Sloane Emily Jacobs: a seriously stressed-out figure-skater from Washington, D.C., who choked during junior nationals and isn’t sure she’s ready for a comeback. What she does know is that she’d give anything to escape the mass of misery that is her life. Now meet Sloane Devon Jacobs, a spunky ice hockey player from Philly who’s been suspended from her team for too many aggressive hip checks. Her punishment? Hockey camp, now, when she’s playing the worst she’s ever played. If she messes up? Her life will be over. When the two Sloanes meet by chance in Montreal and decide to trade places for the summer, each girl thinks she’s the lucky one: no strangers to judge or laugh at Sloane Emily, no scouts expecting Sloane Devon to be a hero. But it didn’t occur to Sloane E. that while avoiding sequins and axels she might meet a hockey hottie—and Sloane D. never expected to run into a familiar (and very good-looking) face from home. It’s not long before the Sloanes discover that convincing people you’re someone else might be more difficult than being yourself" (Summary from goodreads.com)

Being Sloane Jacobs sounds so good and I loved Morrill's previous book, Meant to Be!

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Trust In Me Cover Reveal

Trust In Me
By: J. Lynn
Release Date: October 22, 2013

It’s Wait for You as you’ve never seen it. Trust in Me lets you in on Cam’s side of the #1 New York Times Bestselling story.
Cameron Hamilton is used to getting what he wants, especially when it comes to women. But when Avery Morgansten comes crashing into his life – literally – he finally meets the one person who can resist his soulful baby blues. But Cam’s not ready to give up. He can’t get the feisty and intriguing girl out of his head.
Avery has secrets, secrets that keep her from admitting the feelings Cam knows she has for him. Will persistence (and some delicious homemade cookies) help him break down her barriers and gain her trust? Or will he be shut out of Avery's life, losing his first real shot at the kind of love that lasts forever?
 
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Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Waiting on Wednesday #114: Panic


Waiting On Wednesday is a weekly event hosted by Breaking the Spine that spotlights upcoming releases.


Panic
By: Lauren Oliver
Release Date: March 4, 2013

"Panic began as so many things do in Carp, a dead-end town of 12,000 people in the middle of nowhere: because it was summer, and there was nothing else to do. Heather never thought she would compete in Panic, a legendary game played by graduating seniors, where the stakes are high and the payoff is even higher. She’d never thought of herself as fearless, the kind of person who would fight to stand out. But when she finds something, and someone, to fight for, she will discover that she is braver than she ever thought. Dodge has never been afraid of Panic. His secret will fuel him, and get him all the way through the game, he’s sure of it. But what he doesn't know is that he’s not the only one with a secret. Everyone has something to play for. For Heather and Dodge, the game will bring new alliances, unexpected revelations, and the possibility of first love for each of them—and the knowledge that sometimes the very things we fear are those we need the most" (Summary from goodreads.com)

I'm really looking forward to reading Panic because I've enjoyed all of Oliver's previous books.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Becca Fitzpatrick: Authors Are Rockstars Tour (Interview and Giveaway)

Authors Are Rockstars Tour: Becca Fitzpatrick
 
I'm so excited to be hosting Becca Fitzpatrick for the 2nd Annual Authors Are Rockstars Tour hosted by Rachel @ Fiktshun, Jaime @ Two Chicks on Books, and Mindy @ Magical Urban Fantasy Reads.


Becca Fitzpatrick is a rockstar because she is a wonderful writer who has brought to life memorable characters! 
Hush, Hush was one of the first young adult books that I picked up that was about fallen angels and I quickly fell in love with the story. I have loved following along to this series for the past few years. Becca has kept me on the edge of my seat and the day that the last installment came out, I rushed to the bookstore first thing that morning to buy my copy of Finale. The series as a whole was exciting and unpredictable. She made me fiercely root for Nora and Patch and then wish that I could be Vee's best friend. Becca writes great characters that stand out, especially Patch. I met Becca at BEA last year and she was so sweet in person as well. (She also brought models who wore angel wings with her and that made for a very good morning at BEA ;) ). I'm already highly anticipating her next novel, Black Ice and preparing myself for the suspense that this story will sure deliver.  

About Becca Fitzpatrick:
Becca Fitzpatrick's first book, Hush, Hush, debuted as a New York Times bestseller. She graduated college with a degree in health, which she promptly abandoned for storytelling. When not writing, she's most likely running, prowling sale racks for shoes, or fulfilling her mission to taste every flavor of ice cream under the sun. She lives in Colorado, the lone girl in a house filled with boys.  Website - Twitter
 
Interview: 
1.) Hi Becca, thank you for stopping by to answer some questions! First up, how would you describe your Hush, Hush series in three words?
 
Becca: "Twisty, sexy, suspenseful"
 
2.) Did you have a favorite character to write in the Hush, Hush series?
 
Becca: "Vee, hands down. She reminds me of two of my childhood best friends. I love her crazy, daredevil side - she's the perfect counterpart to Nora Grey, who's more straitlaced and reserved. A surprising fact: I would often spend hours pondering Nora's and Patch's lines, but Vee's lines always came easily to me. Despite her big personality, she was a very easy character to work with, ha!"
 
3.) How did you come up with the titles for all of the Hush, Hush books?
 
Becca: "I found the first two in the dictionary. For example, the definition of "hush" is to keep concealed. The definition of "crescendo" is to increase in intensity. I believe my editor came up with the final two titles - they were the hardest. We pondered many, many titles before we came up with ones we both liked."
 
4.) With Hush, Hush being optioned for a film, is there one scene in particular from the book that you would just love to see on the screen?
 
Becca: "Oh, good question! Maybe the scene where Patch and Nora see each other at Delphic Seaport Amusement Park, and Patch convinces Nora to ride The Archangel roller coaster with him. That scene as very creepy and fun to write. At that point in the book, we don't know Patch's true intentions, but  we definitely know there's something dark and mysterious about him."
 
5.) What is your writing process like? (Any favorite snacks, writing places, music, etc)
 
Becca: "I almost always write in my office. I prefer it quiet, "prefer" being the key word (I have two highly energetic boys with excellent voice projection). I always have a glass of water with me, and when I'm really stressed, a bag of Peanut M&M's will magically make its way onto my desk. Unlike many authors, I don't write with music playing in the background. Writing is very hard work for me, and demands all of my attention - I find it hard to concentrate with background noise." 
 
6.) What is your top favorite book or books?
 
Becca: "Thank you for giving me the option to name more than one! I love OUTLANDER by Diana Gabaldon, SPEAK by Laurie Halse Anderson, THE JANE AUSTEN BOOK CLUB by Karen Joy Fowler, and LONESOME DOVE by Larry McMurtry."
 
7.) Can you share anything about your newest upcoming thriller story, Black Ice?
 
Becca: "BLACK ICE has been the hardest book I've written. I put everything into that book. I hope it's my best story yet, and I hope readers empathize with the characters as they try to uncover their motives. BLACK ICE is a psychological thriller, so the characters are complex and flawed, and there is a definite case of there's-something-strange-going-on. And for those who are wondering, yes there is a sexy, romantic hero . . . but he might not be who you think!"
 
Thank you so much Becca Fitzpatrick for taking the time to answer some questions!

If you haven't read the Hush, Hush series yet then I strongly recommend checking it! Goodreads - Amazon - Barnes and Noble
Add Black Ice to Goodreads

Giveaway:
Giveaway is open to US only. One winner will win a Finale T-shirt and locker size poster. Items will be shipped by the author's assistant.

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Thank you to Rachel, Jaime, and Mindy for hosting the Authors Are Rockstars Tour! Make sure you visit all of the other awesome stops on the tour!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Waiting on Wednesday #113: Cress


Waiting On Wednesday is a weekly event hosted by Breaking the Spine that spotlights upcoming releases.

Cress
By: Marissa Meyer
Release Date: February 4, 2013

"Rapunzel's tower is a satellite. She can't let down her hair - or her guard. In this third book in the bestselling Lunar Chronicles series, Cinder and Captain Thorne are fugitives on the run, with Scarlet and Wolf in tow. Together, they’re plotting to overthrow Queen Levana and her army. Their best hope lies with Cress, who has been trapped on a satellite since childhood with only her netscreens as company. All that screen time has made Cress an excellent hacker – unfortunately, she’s just received orders from Levana to track down Cinder and her handsome accomplice. When a daring rescue goes awry, the group is separated. Cress finally has her freedom, but it comes at a high price. Meanwhile, Queen Levana will let nothing stop her marriage to Emperor Kai. Cress, Scarlet, and Cinder may not have signed up to save the world, but they may be the only ones who can" (Summary from goodreads.com)

I'm so excited for Cress! I love this series and I love the tale of Rapunzel. I can't wait to read this retelling!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

The Moon and More by Sarah Dessen


The Moon and More
By: Sarah Dessen
Released: June 4, 2013
Source: BEA
Purchase the Book: Amazon
*A copy of this book was provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review

"Luke is the perfect boyfriend: handsome, kind, fun. He and Emaline have been together all through high school in Colby, the beach town where they both grew up. But now, in the summer before college, Emaline wonders if perfect is good enough. Enter Theo, a super-ambitious outsider, a New Yorker assisting on a documentary film about a reclusive local artist. Theo's sophisticated, exciting, and, best of all, he thinks Emaline is much too smart for Colby. Emaline's mostly-absentee father, too, thinks Emaline should have a bigger life, and he's convinced that an Ivy League education is the only route to realizing her potential. Emaline is attracted to the bright future that Theo and her father promise. But she also clings to the deep roots of her loving mother, stepfather, and sisters. Can she ignore the pull of the happily familiar world of Colby?Emaline wants the moon and more, but how can she balance where she comes from with where she's going? Sarah Dessen's devoted fans will welcome this story of romance, yearning, and, finally, empowerment. It could only happen in the summer" (Summary from goodreads.com)

I'm a huge fan of Sarah Dessen's books and was so excited the first time I heard about this book. I really enjoyed it and purposely saved this to read only on those summer beach days.

Emaline lives in a small beach town and it's her last summer before college. She has been dating Luke for years and they grew up together. However, this is the summer of change. Theo shows up as the assistant on a film documentary and is staying in a beach rental where Emaline works. I thought Emaline was a great character. She was so frustrating some times, but I understood where she was coming from. She's grown up in this small town and her father, who is barely involved in her life, believes that she can do better than this town. She finds herself torn. Emaline is realistic and developed well.

The plot was interesting and also realistic. I liked that there were a lot of aspects to this story. There was the romance, the documentary about the local artist, Emaline's different relationships with all of her family members, and lastly Emaline trying to decide what it is that she wants. I especially liked the family storyline, more specifically the one with her biological father. Her whole family history is complicated to say the least. I just loved how this whole storyline developed. The romance storyline was not entirely what I expected and I think that's what made me like it more.

I loved the setting in Colby. I loved being taken away to this small little beach town and I felt like I was walking around with these characters. I loved visiting the tourist spots, the boardwalk, the beach, the home rentals, and then the small local spots.

Overall, I really enjoyed The Moon and More. It may not be my absolute favorite Sarah Dessen book, but it was still an enjoyable read. I quickly became attached to these characters and invested in what would happen next for them. I would definitely recommend it as a summer beach read!


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Monday, August 5, 2013

Awakenings by J.E. Shannon Spotlight



Awakenings
By: J. E. Shannon
Publisher: Entranced Publishing
Genre: YA paranormal romance
Release Date: July 29, 2013
 
Evie Shepard awakens to a nightmare. She's been buried alive and has no idea how or why. As she struggles to remember what
happened, she begins to notice changes -- heightened senses, as well as increased speed, agility, and strength. And her heart no longer
beats. She soon makes a disturbing discovery: she wasn't buried alive; she was murdered. Somehow, she has come back...and she wants
revenge.
 
Buy Links: Amazon | Kobo | Smashwords | B&N
 
Giveaway:
To celebrate her new release, JE Shannon is giving away a Kindle with an ecopy of Awakenings (US only). One runner-up will win an
ecopy of Awakenings (open internationally). You can enter here: http://bit.ly/13v1u59
 
About the Author:
J. E. Shannon currently lives in Florida, but is a Missouri native. She spends most of her time reading, writing, and taking care of her
small child and two crazy dogs. Visit her at www.jeshannonbooks.com.
 
Author Social Media Links:
 
 
 
Excerpt:
I have no idea where I am, or how I got here. I want to move, but don’t know
where to go. My thoughts are spiraling out of control, and they are so fractured I can’t seem to stop them. Dizzy, I slump back to the ground and rest my head on my knees. I cover my ears with my hands, trying to drown out my inner voice. I force myself to focus  on one thing: How do I get out of here? The dizziness seems to have passed, so I get back on my feet and try to figure out where I might be.
The trees are large, growing so close together that their canopies touch, so I
must be in a wooded area. Leaves are scattered at my feet, rustling as the wind blows. It’s night, but the full moon gives just enough light that I can make out my surroundings.
The longer I’m out in the darkness, the clearer everything becomes. Soft forest sounds reach me — the rustling of small animals scurrying around, the constant chirping of crickets, and the flutter of wings, possibly a bat. I never realized before how loud a forest could be. The woods seem to thin out in the distance off to my left, so I head in that direction. I walk for a short while in the silvery moonlight that falls between the leaves, to a small paved road that curves away to the south. Looking back to where I was buried, I am shocked to find it so far away already. I don’t understand. How could I possibly have gotten from there to here so quickly? I wonder briefly if I am having blackouts. But that explanation doesn’t feel right.
What’s stranger is that I can see so clearly. Every detail is so crisp and clear that it might as well be daytime. This is more than just my eyes adjusting to the night. The more I look around, the sharper everything becomes.I close my eyes and try to regain my senses. Shaking, I rest my hand against the
rough bark of a nearby tree. A distant bang makes me jump. I shove myself away from the tree and to my amazement the trunk of the tree now bears my handprint embedded a good three inches in. I stare at it, mouth open in disbelief. Oh God. What’s happening to me? This can’t be real. I shake my head in denial.  I just want this nightmare to end.
Pressing my face into my hands, I try to make sense of what is going on. When I take a deep, calming breath, nothing happens. I’m not breathing. Not at all. The hollow feeling in my chest reminds me that something is still absent. I raise my hand to my chest and find more nothing. Still no beat, no pulsing of blood through my veins. Black spots appear in front of me as coldness seeps into my chest. The forest begins to spin, and I know I’m on the verge of passing out. A memory comes back to me so sharply that it drives me to my knees. A cold cell. A flash of pain. Lying on the freezing concrete, unable to move, in a pool of warm blood. Before I can make any sense of it, it’s gone
again. But one thing is perfectly clear: I wasn’t buried alive. I was buried dead.  And somehow I have come back.